Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald
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Zelda Fitzgerald (1900-1948) American novelist. The beautiful daughter of a well-to-do family from Montgomery, Alabama, Zelda was a free-spirited, rebellious girl when she met author F Scott Fitzgerald (1896-1940) in July 1918. He noted in his journal that on September 7th he fell in love with Zelda, and the two were married in a small ceremony at New York St. Patrick's Cathedral in April 1920. A failed ballet dancer and artist, she had a modestly successful career as a novelist, her most famous work being, Save Me the Waltz (1932), which she wrote at Phillips Clinic in Baltimore, while recovering from her second mental breakdown. From the beginning, the two carried on an extremely unhealthy, yet enduring and intense love affair. Diagnosed as a schizophrenic, she died in a fire at the Highland Hospital Sanitarium where she had been admitted for depression.
I look down the tracks and see you coming-- and out of every haze and mist your darling rumpled trousers are hurrying to me-- Without you, dearest dearest I couldn't see or hear of feel or think-- or live-- I love you so and I'm never in all our lives going to let us be apart another night. It's like begging for mercy of a storm or killing beauty or growing old, without you. I want to kiss you so-- and in the back where your dear hair starts and your chest -- I love you -- and I can't tell you how much-- to think that I'll die without you knowing -- You've got to try [to] feel how much I do-- how inanimate I am when you're gone-- I can't even hate these damnable people-- Nobody's got any right to live but us-- and they're dirtying up our world and I can't hate them because I love you so-- Come quick-- Come quick to me-- I could never do without you if you hated me and were covered with sores like a leper-- if you ran away with another woman and starved me and beat me-- I still would want you I know-- Lover, Lover, Darling-- Your wife
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